Poem 206 – Empty Nest Syndrome

A shelf of shoes, unmatched and overflowing
A sock left in the laundry all alone

A pair of glasses for computer working
A charger from a previous mobile phone

Some letters sent obliviously, now stacked
Awaiting reading like that dusty book

A pile of magazines stuffed in the rack
Remember your promise to one day take a look

Now fully fledged our chick has flown the nest
And found a home that she can call her own

I wonder when she’ll come and get the rest, ’cause
We’re longing for some empty nest syndrome!

Allegedly, our daughter’s left home. Looking around, I’m not yet totally convinced!
(20.09.23)

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Original photo by Robert Thiemann on Unsplash

Poem 205 – The Memories of a Time Traveller

When I was little, time stretched out
but now I find the past, present
and future are condensed and tight.
From here, my former selves converge
just like a Doctor Who special.
I wonder how it ends?
                                                Perhaps
it’s like a concertina flow:
relax, compress, relax once more?
What if, however, it’s a black hole:
relax, compress, compress, compress?
Is there a memory time horizon
past which our recollections are
so dense they can’t escape?…
When I was young the wars seemed so
far back, but now they seem so close;
my parents seemed so old, but now
I find they were younger than I am today.
A year is but a month, a month
a week, a week a day, time slides,
and like a fairground hall of mirrors
the path’s confused and found distorted.
Within the glass I see the man
that I’ll become, imposed upon
the timefree boy I used to be.

As Doctor Who once famously said that time isn’t linear, but actually is, ‘like a big ball of wibbly wobbly… time-y wimey… stuff‘. Maybe it’s something to do with having passed the half-century, but I’m certainly finding this to be increasingly true.
(18.09.23)

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Photo by Mick Haupt on Unsplash

Poem 204 – Ghosts of Salone*

I felt it then, the first time that I stepped
outside the plane in Lungi International.
Enveloped by a suffocating blanket,
I stood, arrested by the heavy air.
The skies were dark, I could not see its palms,
but soon I found that mine were damp.
This pattern would repeat each morning as
we left our air-conditioned chalets and
exclaimed ‘it’s hot again’, as if surprised.
As if…
        These vibrant midnight scenes still tarry.
The virgin walk across the unknown runway
towards conflicting voices, thick and urgent.
The chaos. Papers waved. Bribes sought. Unmoored.
Sidestepping through the scrum to find our car.
Escape. A momentary peace behind the windscreen.
We drive past twinkling kerosene and figures
emerging from the darkness, eyes lit up,
rushing to meet the ferry at the harbour;
meeting instead a herd of cars. We sit,
the mercury rising, ‘midst the midnight hawkers.
Cicada lullabies meet drowsy eyes.
The ferry never comes. ‘It’s broken down.’
This news does not inspire my confidence.
‘Don’t worry there are two’, I’m told, ‘the other
will soon arrive.’ Alas, that’s late as well.
Strapped in, I sleep a stuffy, restless sleep,
one eye half open so as not to miss
the novelty, the other stupefied with heat.
A decade on and home, I find September’s
unexpected heatwave stirs up old ghosts
wakes up, recalls, these vivid memories
of sticky hands and distant drowsy streets.

* As Sierra Leone is sometimes known by its people.

Walking out in the hottest day of the year yesterday awoke memories of my first moments in Sierra Leone some twenty years ago.
(11.09.23)

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Poem 203 – Before

The lull before the storm, dark clouds are gathering
I’m waiting for the punch(line), my stomach’s tumbling
Holding my breath, as butterflies are swarming
I check my watch, anticipation’s clawing,
Its second hand is creeping, time is dawdling
It’s slowed right to a stop, and I’m left…
……………………………………………………………..dangling
The wait’s more painful than the actual happening

I suspect we all know what it’s like in the build up to a significant event: an interview, exam, funeral or moment of personal conflict. I don’t know about you, but usually I find the build up worse than the climax. I don’t usually rhyme like this, but this time it accidentally fell into that rhythm. Like most poetry, best spoken out loud.
(09.09.23)

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Photo by Agê Barros on Unsplash

Poem 202 – A What3Words Haiku

Temperature plummets
and so whimsical winter
makes.poetic.snows

This was actually written way back before ‘Poem 1‘, but using what3words to locate my car and tent at Greenbelt reminded me of it. The gates and signposts in Lea Valley have what3words identifiers on them to help locate them. One not far from us is the magical ‘makes.poetic.snows‘. This was begging to be put in verse (but hopefully not into practice, not too soon anyway…)
(01.09.23)

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Photo by Jessica Fadel on Unsplash

Poem 201 – Genetic Verse

Your verse hasn’t faded,
just merely passed along
Watson’s famed double-helix,
finding a new voice in me,
your son. Your words still speak.

I may not have your humour,
my poems don’t twinkle like
yours do, so mimicking
your eyes as you read them.
They have a different accent.

But underneath they share
that same urge to be spoken,
to find a way to be
formed and found and so heard.
Nature and nurture guide me.

I write and hear us speaking
shared turn of phrase, and see
a familiar gesture.
I smile in recognition
and wonder whose turn’s next.

Dad has always written verse, verse that’s made me smile and groan and think. Recently he’s found his fading memory has militated against this. I think he’s felt the loss. Dad, your poems have inspired mine. I hope that in some way through them you speak on.
(31.08.23)

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Photo by Sangharsh Lohakare on Unsplash

Poem 200 – The Wedding Dance Floor

Last night I danced all night.
Today I have no voice
and blisters on my toes
to witness my exploits.
It may have been a case of
defiant dad dancing
but do I care? Do I?
No, not at all! For those
few hours I lost myself
within the moment.

Earlier this month I had the joy of attending the wedding of a couple I know through church. It was a wonderful day for a wonderful couple. The disco was great fun too – I only hope I didn’t put others off… I wrote this at the time and have finally dusted it off and made it presentable.
(30.08.23)

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Poem 199 – Greenbelt Portaloo Roulette

A midnight queue
to use the loo
the final act has faded.

Where could it be,
this lavatory,
on which my bum descended?

A Kettering field
in which we yield,
our hearts and minds upended

A place of grace
but a trial I face
‘cos without a trace
the toilet roll has ended!

Greenbelt Festival is home to me, a place I’m pulled back to year after year to meet friends, have my soul restored, and enjoy a thoroughly good time. This year was no exception. The combination of talks, music, camping, and yes, poetry, is good for me. Home now, I’m missing it all, all that is except the portaloos…. Here’s one written at the end of Saturday night.
(29.08.23)

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Poem 198 – Silence

Sometimes, the most eloquent prayer is silence.
It says I cannot feel your pain because
I do not walk the path you tread, it’s yours.
In ignorance, I have no words to give;
those I possess will not suffice, meaning
speaking belittles your experience.
And so, like Job, I hold my hand across
my mouth to offer you the best I can.

As a church minister, I frequently find myself with people facing suffering. I’ve learnt that the best thing to say is often nothing at all. The best thing is to simply be there with them.
(17.08.23)

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Poem 197 – 3 Slip, Chatham Docks

This vaulted canopy, cascading wave,
cathedral to the men who crafted ships.
Your hall of mirrors draws past scenes towards us
and paints them in an overlapping vision
so ghosts of shipwrights, echoes of the age
of sail, now walk with us beneath your cage.
Their sweat lined muscles stretch and strain in labour,
slipways delivering hard won art down birth
canals to Father Thames, whose eager arms,
outstretched, lap forwards to receive them.

We recently spent a happy day exploring the historic docks at Chatham. At the heart of them stands 3 Slip, this magnificent building in which the boats were built. It’s vast and glorious – ignore the floor in the picture, that’s a mezzanine level erected so you can view the roof. It didn’t take much to imagine the sights, sounds, feel and smells of the place as it was when it was open.
(16.08.23)

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