Poem 206 – Empty Nest Syndrome

A shelf of shoes, unmatched and overflowing
A sock left in the laundry all alone

A pair of glasses for computer working
A charger from a previous mobile phone

Some letters sent obliviously, now stacked
Awaiting reading like that dusty book

A pile of magazines stuffed in the rack
Remember your promise to one day take a look

Now fully fledged our chick has flown the nest
And found a home that she can call her own

I wonder when she’ll come and get the rest, ’cause
We’re longing for some empty nest syndrome!

Allegedly, our daughter’s left home. Looking around, I’m not yet totally convinced!
(20.09.23)

© Ben Quant 2023
Original photo by Robert Thiemann on Unsplash

Poem 205 – The Memories of a Time Traveller

When I was little, time stretched out
but now I find the past, present
and future are condensed and tight.
From here, my former selves converge
just like a Doctor Who special.
I wonder how it ends?
                                                Perhaps
it’s like a concertina flow:
relax, compress, relax once more?
What if, however, it’s a black hole:
relax, compress, compress, compress?
Is there a memory time horizon
past which our recollections are
so dense they can’t escape?…
When I was young the wars seemed so
far back, but now they seem so close;
my parents seemed so old, but now
I find they were younger than I am today.
A year is but a month, a month
a week, a week a day, time slides,
and like a fairground hall of mirrors
the path’s confused and found distorted.
Within the glass I see the man
that I’ll become, imposed upon
the timefree boy I used to be.

As Doctor Who once famously said that time isn’t linear, but actually is, ‘like a big ball of wibbly wobbly… time-y wimey… stuff‘. Maybe it’s something to do with having passed the half-century, but I’m certainly finding this to be increasingly true.
(18.09.23)

© Ben Quant 2023
Photo by Mick Haupt on Unsplash

Poem 204 – Ghosts of Salone*

I felt it then, the first time that I stepped
outside the plane in Lungi International.
Enveloped by a suffocating blanket,
I stood, arrested by the heavy air.
The skies were dark, I could not see its palms,
but soon I found that mine were damp.
This pattern would repeat each morning as
we left our air-conditioned chalets and
exclaimed ‘it’s hot again’, as if surprised.
As if…
        These vibrant midnight scenes still tarry.
The virgin walk across the unknown runway
towards conflicting voices, thick and urgent.
The chaos. Papers waved. Bribes sought. Unmoored.
Sidestepping through the scrum to find our car.
Escape. A momentary peace behind the windscreen.
We drive past twinkling kerosene and figures
emerging from the darkness, eyes lit up,
rushing to meet the ferry at the harbour;
meeting instead a herd of cars. We sit,
the mercury rising, ‘midst the midnight hawkers.
Cicada lullabies meet drowsy eyes.
The ferry never comes. ‘It’s broken down.’
This news does not inspire my confidence.
‘Don’t worry there are two’, I’m told, ‘the other
will soon arrive.’ Alas, that’s late as well.
Strapped in, I sleep a stuffy, restless sleep,
one eye half open so as not to miss
the novelty, the other stupefied with heat.
A decade on and home, I find September’s
unexpected heatwave stirs up old ghosts
wakes up, recalls, these vivid memories
of sticky hands and distant drowsy streets.

* As Sierra Leone is sometimes known by its people.

Walking out in the hottest day of the year yesterday awoke memories of my first moments in Sierra Leone some twenty years ago.
(11.09.23)

© Ben Quant 2023

Poem 203 – Before

The lull before the storm, dark clouds are gathering
I’m waiting for the punch(line), my stomach’s tumbling
Holding my breath, as butterflies are swarming
I check my watch, anticipation’s clawing,
Its second hand is creeping, time is dawdling
It’s slowed right to a stop, and I’m left…
……………………………………………………………..dangling
The wait’s more painful than the actual happening

I suspect we all know what it’s like in the build up to a significant event: an interview, exam, funeral or moment of personal conflict. I don’t know about you, but usually I find the build up worse than the climax. I don’t usually rhyme like this, but this time it accidentally fell into that rhythm. Like most poetry, best spoken out loud.
(09.09.23)

© Ben Quant 2023
Photo by Agê Barros on Unsplash

Poem 202 – A What3Words Haiku

Temperature plummets
and so whimsical winter
makes.poetic.snows

This was actually written way back before ‘Poem 1‘, but using what3words to locate my car and tent at Greenbelt reminded me of it. The gates and signposts in Lea Valley have what3words identifiers on them to help locate them. One not far from us is the magical ‘makes.poetic.snows‘. This was begging to be put in verse (but hopefully not into practice, not too soon anyway…)
(01.09.23)

© Ben Quant 2023
Photo by Jessica Fadel on Unsplash